paths

we met at the wrong time.

our paths were different.
we were at different points in our lives.

i can't deny the connection i longed to have with you -
i swear you felt it too.

but the sun set
and the shadows were cast over your eyes.

you didn't want me

and you never will.

the desire for you lit my soul
like a wild fire that was never meant to be controlled.

it grew
it roared
and i got engulfed in the flames.
the flames that i thought were going to ignite my soul and make me fly.

but it didn't.

the flames burnt me.
they burnt me to the ground
until there was nothing left
but ashes.
ashes that can't be put together after the destruction.

i thought i had been burnt before
but nothing compared to this.

it stung my soul and left it open.
my heart was now exposed
for everyone to see
and i couldn't hide it.

getting ruined hurts

but maybe it was meant for me.