the stars i see

you're good enough for you
and when you decide that -
it's the day you free yourself.

transferring emotion from my soul to my mind
believing everything i feel.
the emotions consume me
as i lay staring at the darkness.

the stars i see in the sky barely shine
but even then,
the light makes me uncomfortable.

squeezing my eyes shut
i turn numb inside.

they say a pictures tells a thousand words -
but my heart alone could write a novel.
no one knows the stories i hide.
no one knows the darkness i hold.

my mind is beat up like shattered glass
that breaks more each time i breathe.

i tell myself i'm more than this
i tell myself i'm more than this
i tell myself i'm more than this

all i want is to be free.